Quickie

I think there are some moments where just totally letting go helps so much. I think that moment is coming right now before school gets into full gear. I have had a lot of fear for the little amount of trombone I have played all semester, yet I really do not have too much pressure for auditions on Thursday, yet I am telling myself still that I want to as fucking awesome as I can.

So yeah, letting go and not really caring about how much I may have *not* done this summer is okay with me. I did not go on any big trips, I worked a month and made some money, I saw my sister graduate, and I played more and more music, especially towards these last couple of weeks.

Talking with Kenny at breakfast today made the bigger pictures in the coming year much more enticing, just talking and thinking about going abroad to all sorts of places. I think I was pretty dead-on by saying the only reason I have not gotten out of the country at all yet is because I have never truly planned such an opportunity yet.

Saw Kelly at Amante, and to my surprise when she said "we should hang out sometime," unlike most people who use that phrase as some sort of appreciable yet completely empty and hopelessly doomed effort to establish some kindling of friendship, she kinda said "and I know I have really said that a lot to you." Just a little bit of a surprise and a little bit of some heightened appreciation.

Andrew's friend Daniel (also our new housemate) came in yesterday evening, and so far it has been pretty great getting to know him. We tried out single speed bikes together, got bhakti chai, and had some amusing conversations relating to "seeing colors" in music and thinking about what keys of music make what kinds of emotions. Overall, I foresee a good friendship with him and a comfortable and amiable member of this household.

Oh well, lots to think about. Should just keep thinking music and physical fitness for the time being.

Wish my MacBook were back as well.